198. Choices

Choices are such big things,
They make such a difference
in every possible way.
Every choice I make will
affect my life greatly.
How will I know if it'll
be good or bad?
How will I know if that
choice will change my life
for better or worse twenty
years from now?
The answer is I don't,
Nor will I ever.
Life is a chance, and I got
to take chances.
I just gotta pray that
all turns out well
And maybe ask for some
guidance along the way.

194. Waiting

Sitting here,
Waiting;
Going insane.
I hear the clock
tick the
seconds
away
And wonder what
I should do.
Doing nothing isn't
good enough
But I'm stuck here.
All I can do is worry
and assume -
Never really knowing
I'm anxious and nervous;
I'm angry and upset
I want to help -
But I can't.
All I can do is wait.

191. New Things

Something so new to me
and yet familiar -
I hold back cautiously
While some of me wants
to jump right in.
I can't wait for each
new day
But a part of me is
scared.
I don't know what to
say or do,
Yet inside it seems so
clear.
I don't want to lose these feelings -
Want to keep them new forever -
even when they grow old.
I want to keep the happiness,
giddiness, excitement
and nerves
I want to keep these new
things special.