21. Wanting

Some people say you don't know what
you got till it's gone.
For me, it's you don't know what you want
till you can't have it anymore.
I sitll don't know what I want.
My feelings are all mixed up.
I count how many times it's
happened before,
But it's too depressing so I stop.
I think, what do I want -
I don't know
The one thing I do know is that
if I wanted you -
I couldn't.